Hiya LHers, hehehehehehehe thanks for helping me with that word Tibs. Hope your Val went well? I have nothing to say about mine because it was like a regular Saturday for me. To the day’s post. The word ‘best friend’ has never been one I find interesting, I think its because of a bad experience I had in secondary school. I had my first best friend in primary school and when they moved to another state, I became best friendless. When I got to secondary school in JS3, I met Clara (not real name) and we became so close.
I know my secondary school friends on my blog can relate with this post. You see ehn, Clara and I were two different people but how we blended back then is still a mystery or maybe we blended in my head alone. Clara was the fashion, loud, crazy and party type while I was the cool, intelligent and party-less type. You know how people say ‘birds of a feather flock together?’ well, Clara and I weren’t like that because she performed poorly in class. She wasn’t really ready to learn but that didn’t stop me from making her my best friend. I would do her assignments, test and even examination. I made sure we sat together in class and during examination. I told her things, lots of things about me which she later used against me. My other friends would be like babe, you have to be careful with what you tell this girl but I was so blinded with how I felt about her(no homo please). I knew she was the type who talked about people but I didn’t think she would do same to me because of our relationship but I guess I was wrong about her.
Something happened in SS2 and we quarreled. Our quarrel made me see and hear things she had been saying about me to people when we were friends. Mehn… I was so heart broken when I heard all she said, I cried my heart out and I went to her.(I hate confrontations but if you say something bad about me or my family, I will definitely walk up to you and tell you how I feel) I told her the only mistake I made was trusting her so much and making her my best friend, I said so many things I can’t remember anymore because I was in tears (Truth is, I still feel hurt till date. I feel sad as I’m typing this post). She knelt down and started begging me but I was too hurt and I told her I would never forgive her and walked away. I knew she felt bad for what she did because everyone was on my side and they were disappointed in her. She chased me and continued begging but mehn, she cut me deep. My friends told me to forgive her and I told them I wanted to be alone. Weeks later, I forgave her but she stopped being my best friend and I stopped caring about her academically. She almost repeated SS2 and I don’t know what happened to her after SS3. She changed my mindset about ‘best friends.’ She closed the door to best friends in my heart and after her, I never used that word again. I have close friends I am loyal to but no best friend.
Deep post right? Do you have similar experience you want to share?